Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
dropped a new ep last night, happy halloween
fishtitan.bandcamp.com/album/highlights-from-dopey…
https://youtu.be/4QfAEOTJIuI
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Hey, if anyone is still here:
I've been doing a lot of self-reflection on my gender lately and I think "demigirl" is the most accurate label for myself. The TL;DR is that I still feel like a woman, but only for half of the time. The other half is just... eh.
I'm not changing my pronouns because at this point, I'm too used to "she/her" and pretty much no other pronouns give me the same amount of euphoria. But the internal feeling of "half-woman, half-void" is something I've found myself coming back to a *lot* in recent memory. So I may as well accept it for what it is.
I'm republicizing my post-transition Q&A/reaction videos to serve as a time capsule for a certain period of my life.
Truthfully, I don't love how much emphasis I had put on my medical transition in these videos and how vague I feel like I was about actual details, even though the last video in the series(?) is meant to be a subversion of its predecessors.
While I am proud of myself for being so committed to the process, taking girl pills (or boy juice) is not the end-all-be-all of the trans experience.
But ultimately these videos are just as important to my journey as where I stand right now - plus, I am eternally humbled to hear how much these videos have helped others handle their own experiences with gender or to become better allies for the LGBTQ community.
Have a good day,
Isabelle
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So... not to scare anyone, but I think I may *actually* be done with YTP. For reals this time.
To be brutally honest, I have mixed feelings about some of my content and especially the level of microcelebrity that it has afforded me.
At best, my body of work has positively impacted others in different ways and led to strong friendships in my life that I am grateful for.
At worst, it provides content fodder for freebooters on social media, stimuli for unsupervised and parasocially inclined minors, and comment sections for transphobes to spout "YWNBAW" as if it's a fresh and original insult.
Obviously none of these outcomes are directly my fault, and the artist cannot control how the audience perceives their art. But keep in mind, I started making these videos when I was a middle schooler living in a broken home. I had NO idea my channel would ever get to this point. In fact, when my early Blue's Clues YTPs first started blowing up I handled the sudden influx of fame very poorly and often lashed out at previous viewers - and though I doubt that any of the people I've affected are reading this, I want to extend an apology. I hope those folks are doing well.
With all of that aside, I have been feeling very burnt out lately - in my daily life *and* my creative work. I've been suffering from pretty bad executive dysfunction if I take on a project that's on a bigger scale than something like "Volvic Holly". It sucks because there are so many things that I *want* to do, but so often I find myself getting one big creative burst for the month, then stopping and leaving the project untouched for a long time, until the amount of space it takes up on my hard drive becomes a problem. I can't keep doing stuff like that anymore.
I'll still be posting stuff online, but from this point forward I'd like to shift my focus over to my musical creations (*cough* fishtitan.bandcamp.com *cough*). For years now, I've been invested in refining my musical style and skill behind the scenes. With the songs I've been working on lately, I'm feeling optimistic about potentially hitting a breakthrough despite the roadblocks in my workflow.
I'd like to thank everyone who has supported me throughout the years, and I hope that you will stick around for whatever happens next.
Much love and a happy Pride month,
Isabelle 💙
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We finally hit 12k subscribers! Thanks everyone! <3
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Still working on more YTP content. In the meantime, I'm also trying to get back into making and dropping music, so I decided to release this on my one month anniversary with my gf. Enjoy.
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Update for viewers who don't already know or haven't added me on Discord/IG:
After the release of Bear in the Big Clue House, I am going by Isabelle instead of Izzy. Captions in the public backlog have been updated to reflect the change.
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My name is Isabelle (she/they) and these are my YouTube Poops.