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This year taught me the harshest lessons I never wanted to learn.
I thought if I studied hard enough, worked hard enough, and gave it my all, Iâd see resultsâdreams realized, goals achieved. But no. No matter how much effort I poured in, things just didnât work out. And now, as the year is almost over, I canât even reflect on it with any relief. My mind is spinning, consumed by the thought of all the energy I invested only to gain nothing in return.
Yes, efforts can go in vain. No matter what these motivational speakers claim, it happens. And it happened to me. Itâs painful to admit, but itâs real. I even feel envy creeping in when I see others succeeding, which I know is wrong, but itâs hard to avoid.
My career has taken hit after hit. At the start of the year, I suffered intense panic attacksâsomething most people will never understand. Itâs a condition only a small percentage of people deal with, and unless youâre âsuccessfulâ with it, society wonât care. Youâll just be seen as someone who âdeservesâ the struggles.
This year has been nothing but a string of downfalls. Yes, Iâm still alive, and thatâs something to be grateful for. But nothing has broken me as much as this year. I keep questioning everything, trying to make sense of how so much effort could lead to absolutely zero results. And the worst part? I canât even talk about it openly.
Next year? I have no expectations. None. Maybe itâs better that way.
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