in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Yesterday Need for Speed Underground turned 20 years old.
I was going to make a proper video essay on it. I had it planned since the start of the year, but I kept putting it off til later and eventually just lost interest. Plus, what's the point? It would just be overlooked when another, bigger content creator makes a video on it. There is no hope for small creators like myself.
My forza expansion video I made like 2 years ago got an okay amount of views and annoyed a lot of entitled kids just like I'd planned, but that was extremely tiring to make.
Truth be told I don't know what I want to do with this channel. I can't just keep uploading random garbage and expecting it to pop off. When I was 14 I made multiple videos per day just talking about and recording my life and making Hot Wheels videos and Initial D shitposts. Now all the people I became friends with from that are gone, probably don't watch my channel anymore. Most of those videos are also gone because my mother forced me to take a lot of stuff down. I'm now 21 in exactly 1 week plus a day, and I feel like my chances of being a content creator at all are down the drain. Youtube is something I've wanted to do but I don't have the energy to do it, nor do I have a good editing software to actually make stuff.
I'm lost. I don't know what I want, or what the 400 or so people subbed to me want. I'm not getting any younger.
Anyone got any ideas?
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