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Regarding @msmoxncbdisosb @PagFNAF (formerly PagEXE/PagFNAF)
TRIGGER WARNING:
This post will have mentions of 9/11, suicide, grooming, and especially sexual phrases and content, so if that makes you uncomfortable, please don't read. All of these quotes are REAL things he's said. I have images to back that up. Any errors will be edited. I don't want to make another post regarding this, any questions I'll address in the comments. However, be on the lookout for a video compiling (I believe) everyone's experiences. I don't care if you agree or disagree with me, I just want to be heard.
***I DO NOT want anyone involved to get harassed, bullied or anything. Keep it civil, please.
God, this is embarrassing. I don't know how many people this will reach, but it needs to come out. I did not plan to come back like this and I wanted to keep all of this in the dark, but I'm done.
Some of you may know, I had a friend named Pag. You should especially know this if you knew me way back when I first started seq_uoia. Long story short, things have gone to shit. It's always been like that, I just hadn't realized until now.
I met Pag 2 years ago in 2023 when I first started my new channel (this one). This was long before I met the RMAU group, and I didn't have much friends besides him. We immediately got along, without a hitch. At the time, he was 16, and I was 14. And he knew that. Right off the bat, he would ask me questions such as "are you a top or a bottom?" I knew it was wrong, and at first I tried to dodge the question, but he kept persisting. So I thought, if I just tell him what he wants to hear, he'll stop.
Stuff like this happened a lot at the beginning, which I don't know if that's for the better or for the worse. It started off as a little "ily," which, in my eyes, was 100% PLATONIC. I don't know if he thought otherwise, but now I'd assume so. Then it became "nice ass", "marry me", "kiss me." I knew in my soul it wasn't right, but I didn't want to come off as mean by telling him off. You'd think someone older than you would have some common sense. I was too nice.
After we started talking more, he started asking me to make images of little scenarios with gacha club characters. It started as "could i request an image?", regarding our made up characters. He would tell me our online personas were dating, getting married, etc. Obviously I didn't like this, considering my online persona was a representation of myself. So I got rid of it. I never used that character again.
Then he started asking for images with our IRL personas, "okay now make a image of you PINNING me against a wall".
To a fourteen year old. But it's fine because he was a minor too, right.
He asked me to roleplay once too, "damn / we could have done a rp about us in a bed" and "i bet i dominate you in bed."
I was so scared to shut him down, I changed myself so I'd have an excuse as to why I don't feel the same way (rather than just flat out saying that). I changed my sexuality label to aromantic asexual, just so he would stop. I convinced myself for over a year that that was who I truly was, only recently getting out of that mindset. Only after that did he tone it down.
Overall, he's always been flirty like this, even saying I'm his boyfriend. It made me uncomfortable, obviously, but I was blinded by the fact that this is my friend, he just likes me.
A little while passed until he asked me for a face reveal. I did not want to show my face online, but I trusted him to keep it a secret. Even then, the picture of myself concealed 70% of my face.
I don't know if he truly kept my face reveal a secret. I know he downloaded it. I trusted him enough to keep it to himself, but looking back now, I'm not so sure. He's sent me pictures of (supposedly) his friend's faces. I do not know if his friends knew or gave him permission to do so. I don't even know if they're his friends. But that's neither here nor there. He asked me "no clothes version when?", referring to my face reveal picture. I didn't say anything.
He called me cute, hot, gorgeous, perfect. That only made me feel as if we were closer. He asked me if I'm a biological girl or boy. I don't mind when people ask me this, so I told him I'm a biological girl. He told me "so u have boobs ?"
Then he asked me what color my underwear is.
Pag, now you have the AUDACITY to 1. send us a copy and pasted apology (yeah, 'cause I'm sure you were VERY hurt), 2. post another apology on YouTube, basically guilt-tripping your way through it (ie. "I'm not a good person, and I know I was never one... And the fact I have basically a non-existant social life and have been extremely lonely for months now didn't help things."), 3. ignore your grooming allegations, and 4. remove your discord profile and all of your content. Do you think you can just run away and think we can just forgive and forget?
If this is a slap in the face for you, it's what you need. I saw your first apology post before you deleted it. You even replied to someone saying you never, EVER tried flirting with any minors. I do not care if you were also a minor, I was FOURTEEN PAG. You do NOT seem to understand the maturity gap between a fourteen year old and a sixteen year old. That is someone who is FRESH OUT OF PRETEENS and someone who is nearing ADULTHOOD.
I've always tried to suppress the fact that you have done these things because I was afraid. Afraid to lose you. I'm thankful I now recognize that I no longer need you in my life. I'm almost sorry for you.
I do acknowledge the fact that you have apologized for one of these things, but that doesn't make it just go away. I know if I was uncomfortable, I should've spoken up. But you're older, you're supposed to be more mature. You know better than to talk to someone who was JUST A PRETEEN about this sexual shit. You always say you're trying to change, but I see you do the EXACT same things to other people. Every time I think you've changed, you've just stopped acting this way around me. Doing it to me is one thing, but to my FRIENDS who you should've felt privileged to meet? You make me sick.
Grooming can happen between a minor and another minor, as long as they have a large maturity gap. It is gaining someone's trust and dragging them into sexual abuse. Thank god it didn't develop into something worse. I do not care if your intentions are innocent. That does not change the fact that it still happened.
Here's a list of what you've done, just in case it wasn't clear.
1. You asked to date a minor and flirted with a minor.
2. You’ve constantly sent sexual messages even when told not to.
3. Romanticizing/Fantasizing/Possible Sexualization of women.
4. Racist, if not borderline racist remarks.
5. Constant guilt-tripping.
6. Disregarding people's interests and passions.
7. Wanting (even begging) to be in a fake relationships (+ with someone who is aromantic)
8. Talk about his NSFW account (with no warning)
9. Constantly talked about how young whoever you're talking to is
10. Made jokes about serious events (ie. 9/11, suicide)
+ Possibly even more.
I know the people commenting on your post don't know any better, but it's INFURIATING how these people can feel sorry for you while you know damn well you're in the wrong. It's infuriating to see people say "I'm gonna miss you, you did nothing wrong." You're an adult now, you should know better. Now it feels like you're rallying your supporters against us. Unfortunately, people will only believe someone when a situation is black and white. Situations like these aren't like that. I acknowledge the fact that you've said you're trying to better yourself, and I think that's great.
I don't want you to come crying, saying how you're such a horrible person. I already know that. You abandoning everything after your apology was all I needed to see.
And I don't know if it's for the better or worse, but I do not think you realize the severity of what you're saying to others and how it could affect them. Everything that I've listed, that shit sticks with people forever. You abandoned your online presence because you know you did something wrong. While you might be able to forget about it and move on, we'll never forget.
Don't try to delete your YouTube channel. Don't try to delete your discord. You look cowardly. I'm not making this so people harass you. That's not what I want. I want you to man up and stop trying to run away. I want people to know what you did.
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he's actually my wife, trust me bro
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