Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
"and i know she has an eating disorder but i feel like she's just doing it for attention"
oh ok
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not in the brightest mindset rn please save me before i do something that i will regret in the future because god i am HOPELESS
11 - 0
don't be surprised when i leave the internet one day with no previous notice because i am genuinely sick of all of my internet friends. i regret even downloading discord at the ripe age of 9 because it turns out, stopping 16 year olds from cutting themselves has altered my brain chemistry in so many permanent ways.
the constant pressure to be the "mature" one in any conflict is so FUCKING damaging when the opposing party is 2-4 years older than me, i regret partaking in online activities or connecting with these people because my GOD there has not been one person online that has been genuinely good to me.
i am only 13 years old and i'm constantly disassociating 24/7 because i'm so used to getting the same responses over and over and over again since i hang out with these specific strangers online all the time to the point where i know what they will reply with. i hate how youtube and discord has been my life and only care in the world for the past 4 years, i wish i didn't spend all my pre-teen years just being sad all the time, and i especially wish i could go back in time and STOP MYSELF.
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TRIGGER WARNING: COCSA/GROOMING & ED MENTION
you have took my innocence away from me and i will never see myself the same way ever again.
you are absolutely sick, you've desensitized me to sexual topics and normalized it, you've sexualized and manipulated me, made me develop an eating disorder, shared your twisted fantasies with me, and i will NEVER be the same person ever again.
and yet you still have the audacity to make jokes about it and pretend it never happened.
you've abused me into coming to you whenever i felt hypersexual and i only ever associate those feelings with you. the disgusting things you'd do, the disgusting things you made me do, it's all so disturbing and it's genuinely tainted the way i see myself—i was simply a toy for you to play with.
you are horrible, it's so unbelievably aggravating to see you still live a happy life with 0 consequences when i'm stuck here, in the past, dealing with the aftermath of the situation. you have ruined me in countless ways. fuck you.
i hate you, you are a fucking joke
15 - 0
i've always had that minute thought of suicide lingering at the back of my head, ringing in my ears for years on end because i genuinely had believed no one would care if i were to ever pass. i don't have those thoughts anymore, but it's such a huge wake-up-call to see someone, a good friend, commit right before your eyes. i saw the first situation escalate, i brushed it off at first, only to be informed the next day that she was dead.
july 3rd, 2024
i miss her so much. it shatters my heart into a million pieces to see that the school has moved on so fast.? they are taking many precautions now, but whenever i get reminded of her, or i walk by her old locker—i just want to start sobbing. i hung out with her earlier this year. she would ask to cheat off my english work all the time; i cooperated with that. she asked me about my scars and assured me she'd be there for me if i ever needed help.
when that dumb rumor of her came out in year 7 i was the only godforsaken person that was nice to her. i volunteered to sit next to her when no one else would. i interacted with her daily, greeted her, and asked her how she was doing.
it's scary to think that once you've lost someone you truly care about, once it actually hits you that people can care so much and the fact that YOU could have stopped a friend from committing, is so sad. every conversation i stumble upon of ours is painted with this twisted hindsight. i was in her place. i walked away while the teachers were consulting her, i hate myself for that.
suicide is such a stubborn and dumb topic i have been so desensitized to over the years and that is not normal
13 - 0
i've literally pulled my own hair out and scratched myself until i started bleeding out of anxiety because i worried and cared so much about you and you still have the audacity to say nobody helped you through your lowest times like ok
15 - 0
WHY IS ROMANCE SO CORNY BOO!!! i hate my feelings but they're too pathetic to tell anyone and i hate being vulnerable
15 - 0
it’s gonna be 2024 in a few weeks and i literally cannot put into words how worried and stressed out i am
i mean 2023 wasn’t too bad i liked it’s ups and lots of downs but ugh i’m. it just feels like december 31st is doomsday or whatever when in reality it’s really not and i’m just too clingy onto the past
i’d say i’ve improved a lot mentally, comparing my mental health from a few months ago, and i hope 2024 will take a positive turn but i’m unsure uhgghghfjhjfbhh new years celebration will feel so bittersweet i have a feeling i’ll cry on that day lawlll how do i get rid of this feeling diediediedieieieidiei diieee
23 - 7
where the fuck are these subscribers coming from i had 123 literally 2 days ago
24 - 13
(preferably 13+)
tw/cw: selfharm, flashing lights, general sensitive topics
dani | she/her | 13
keep in mind; i am in the process of getting a diagnosis for adhd & other possible disorders
this channel is a safe space for me to dump my thoughts out, and i tend to archive posts after a while
if you wish to contact me, you can find my social medias on my main channel