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17 DECEMBER, WEDNESDAY, 2024. RAIN AND COOL IN VANCOUVER.
Butch has spent the last five days in the Intensive Care Unit of the Cardiac Ward at St. Paul's Hospital. Very nice folks who treated me very well. Now I have to get used to a huge pile of heart pills every day for a while, like the rest of my life, and have my testosterone treatment looked at... I need the stuff, but adjusting it. Old age sucks. Oh well.
My heart rate was running at 160-180 beats a minute... about twice normal. Took them three days and a lot of pills, I.V. and injections to get it back down to normal.
I wuz in to get my hormone shot last Friday and asked my doctor to check my heart as I couldn't feel a pulse and wasn't feeling well. He did, then did a LOT of typing and handed me some papers and said I would need to go to the hospital... like, RIGHT NOW/IMMEDIATELY.
I'm getting a new Endocrinologist (hormone doctor) who, I'm advised, specializes in cases like moi. Will have to travel farther to see him but he's supposed to be my best choice according to the Endocrinology team at St. Paul's hospital. They were very nice, too.
Doctors don't usually check men's hormones unless something very weird is happening. If you are over 40 and having some odd/unexplained issues, poor sex drive, exhaustion, open sores, coloured marks on your skin, ingrown hairs all over the place, hair loss on upper legs, ask to have your major hormones measured.
It was suggested, to me, that donating blood is an effective way to reduce my hemoglobin. I'll look into that.
THANK YOU ST. PAUL'S HOSPITAL CARDIAC WARD AND EMERGENCY WHO SENT ME IMMEDIATELY TO THE FRONT OF THE LINE AND THE ENDOCRINOLOGY TEAM WHO WERE SO VERY UNDERSTANDING.
Me, summer of 2024.
Hat: OrcInd.com/ Get a free mail forwarding address if you live outside the USA to get one.
Glasses: ULTRA Goliath II Snow Whites (not available anywhere)
See-Thru rip stop pants from somewhere (Etsy???) online. I'm wearing skimpy white shorts under them.
Fake pearls from Amazon.
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12 DECEMBER, THURSDAY, 2024. CLOUDY BRIGHT AND CHILLY IN VANCOUVER AT 2PM.
I'm having a difficult day and blame Deletestryl withdrawal as I have no other explanation. It's discontinued so I'm gonna have to live with this, somehow. 12 years on a drug every two weeks and SUDDENLY it's gone... forever. The generic just isn't up to scratch. The pot is helping me through it and I'm trying to keep busy painting.
What do you call it when an Elf takes a selfie? Answer: an Elfie.
Vancouver is on the 49th parallel,so we are far north and the lighting is almost always a bit side-lit making it a great place to shoot film.
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11 DECEMBER, WEDNESDAY, 2024. DARK IN VANCOUVER AT 9PM.
In the news... Australia has received shipment of at least 200 Tomahawk cruise missiles. It means that they have a thousand mile strike distance and China best sit up and take notice. They can carry a nuclear warhead.
Summer 2024, Butch in SkinzWear bikini SkinzWear.com/, gob hat from OrcInd.com/ and Oakley Garage Rock neon yellow sunglasses. Fake pearls from Amazon. Get a free mail forward address such as Shippsy, to get a gob hat outside the USA.
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YouTube/internet personality Marlon Noah. Please put him under my Xmas tree. I'll treat him really, really nice.
Butch needs a partner who is, not only fantastically beautiful, but has a super strong personality who can deal with me, somebody who is independently minded, does their own thing. I'll be as supportive as I can.
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11 DECEMBER, WEDNESDAY, 2024. PATCHY SKY, COOL, BITS OF SUN AT NOON IN VANCOUVER.
I'm having a very rough nite and morning and blaming Deletestryl withdrawal, having nothing else I can think of. I'm on day 8/11 so things should really be kicking by now. The new stuff just isn't working for me yet. I'll get through this, somehow. Trying hard not to exceed 6 T3's a day.
Working on my art/paintings for something to do and feel like I'm accomplishing something, or other. Feeding my ego and I have a big one.
Me at English Bay last summer in WowHomme singlet, H&M bucket hat, ULTRA Goliath II glasses.
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10 DECEMBER, TUESDAY, 2024, NOON. BRIGHT GREY WITH BLUE PATCHES AND COOL IN VANCOUVER.
I'm having an achy time... weather maybe? I'm blaming Deletestryl withdrawal. I haven't had any for three weeks and it's no longer available. I'm guessing there are a lot of men out there going through what I'm going through. The alternate just doesn't have the octane, or something. I'm going to ask for a larger dose on Friday to see what that does. Have another eye exam this afternoon. Butch is falling apart. Wut ya gonna do? I'm not average and don't want to be, ever. Ya gots to be "butch" to get it.
Not sure wut's going on in Russia but they stopped trading the Ruble some time ago as international banks would not accept payment in Rubles. It seems the money is worthless outside Russia although the official value is one cent.
Me in zipper brief from some shop downtown Vancouver, gob hat from OrcInd.com/ (if you live outside the USA sign up for a free mail forwarding address online to a city near you on the border. They will charge you a fee to forward it over the border)
Cheapo sunglasses from some shop downtown somewhere. For reasons unknown I have a LOT of sunglasses. Fake pearls from Amazon.
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A quantum is a unit of value/energy and for definition purposes, the smallest unit there is. Its value is 1. In physics it can be expressed in three dimensional wave form which, like a wave, allows it to be HERE and THERE at, seemingly, the same time... a half-spin repercussion of reality, as it were. Measured, of course, at the speed of light relative to an observer at a given moment in time and space (ooops... darn). But in computing they are looking at multiple possibilities all at once at the same time and seeing wut's there. The quantum unit/photon gets its start by being the level of energy an electron of either spin requires to move up or down one energy level within an atom where that unit is also the smallest photon. You have to be into physics for that kind of stuff. The humans are almost obsolete. Something interesting is that if one electron of a given spin changes its spin and there is an opposite spin electron paired to it, that other electron will seem to know exactly when the other moves. It's a mystery still... spooky motion (quantum entanglement) but it allows for quantum computing. Cool isn't it?
https://youtu.be/W7ppd_RY-UE?si=ftzoB...
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9 DECEMBER, MONDAY, 2024. The day started gloomy and grey with showers but the sun came out in the afternoon with big Vancouver clouds. Saw my doctor... he says not to be concerned with my latest issue, it's just an old age thing and can't be avoided... he reminded me I'm 80. Crap. Otherwise my recent hormone issues seem to be on the mend and I'll have to learn to cope with the fact that my hormone brand has been discontinued, as in permanently. Not crazy about the replacement but wut's ya gonna do? Butch is a CONTROL FREAK. I'll think of something.
Blue sailor hat: Mil Tec from Amazon. Fits small buy next larger size. Sunglasses: Oakley Garage Rock.
Fake pearls from Amazon and spandex shorts from Amazon, somewhere. I like tight stretch stretchy.
The other question? The answer is seven inches.
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8 DECEMBER, SUNDAY, 2024. MIX OF SUN AND CLOUDS, COOL IN VANCOUVER THIS AFTERNOON.
I'm at home working on my paintings. Lots of appointments next week, two with my doc and another eye test.
I learned that Delatestryl, the hormone replacement I've been using for years is discontinued. I'm guessing the patent expired because the so-called generic version is half the price... and half as good as far as I can tell. It's troublesome, for me, because I depend so much upon it. Dat's life, or something. My fate. I don't believe in gods so they hate me. My doctor is of Indian descent so I've learned how to do a Namaste greeting as he always greets me that way when I wave to him when he enters the room. I like the concept behind it... even works for we godless folk. Recognizing that we are all god and acknowledging the gods within us to each other... respect, as it were.
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11pm on a Friday nite and butch is contemplating his life. I'm going to try to put up with the aches and try to stay fit and alive until I'm 81, unless I drop dead first. That's a real possibility, so I live life like I'm already dead and one day at a time. I have lots of stuff to keep me busy. I can't change the world so I attempt to change the world around me one action at a time. You won't miss me if you see me... art compels me to be noticed, make a splash, brighten your miserable day.
No pain, no gain. Shape up or ship out. Did you touch your toes today?
Ya gots to be in the fast lane to keep up with me.
My nose issues are still an issue but seem a bit better... part of my hormone problems and old age. Dang.
The glasses are ULTRA Goliath II in clear acetate.
They've doubled in price since I got mine... pre-covid.
Navy gob hat from OrcInd.com/
If you live outside the USA get a free mail forward address to a city near you.
Fake pearls from Amazon. Pullover from Old Navy... it's old.
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It's me, BUTCH, stranger in a strange land. Age 80, born in 1944. Navy Officer at 19, navigated a repair ship then entered submarine service at age 22. I'm fit but hurt a lot. A queer man who lives alone in South Vancouver. NOT SHY but VERY RECLUSIVE. A tree huger and planet saver. A VISUAL ARTIST/PHOTOGRAPHER into THEORETICAL PARTICLE PHYSICS... Einstein kind of stuff.
Experience has shown me (I'm 80) that most humans are rather shallow hypocrites who don't practice what they preach. Or, as Paul Simon said, "A man hears what he wants to hear and disregards the rest" (The Boxer). I'm a vocal atheist as I consider all religions to be fundamentally evil, and legalized crime. I avoid religious types as poorly educated, or superstitious dangerous humans with no sense of logic. I'm very well educated and old. I can be very, very, very BLUNT... kinda like Socrates. His fellow citizens didn't much like him. In fact, they ordered him to kill himself or they would do it.