Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
I can’t stand how I can’t cry like a normal person. I want to cry so I can get out the feelings and then be able to talk about them like a normal person. I want to cry so I don’t have to make I YouTube community post to vent because I can’t do it on tumblr or else I’ll make my friends feel bad because as much as I love them, they’re the reason that I had a no-tears cry (I didn’t feel heard, yada yada.) And I still don’t feel better, I want to talk about it but I can’t. I hate myself. This is stupid im stupid because I can’t be normal. My fucking depression keeps me from crying most of the time. At least this is a record for me. One actual cry and one cry with no tears in two weeks. Normally it’s neither. I’m upset because I was trying to play a game with my friends, it took forever to get together, and then when it did happen we couldn’t get everyone in the same game. Just as I was joining, two of my friends went on a different file even though I said I was joining and so I went into my closet to calm down, then they left the call oh hey I started tearing up!! Oh this is a new record. Two tear cries in two weeks. And since they left the call I was unable to say anything about how I felt. I wanna talk to my 3rd friend who also said he wasn’t feeling heard but the other two didn’t see his message ig because I know they wouldn’t purposely hurt us, and say: hey I’m sorry we weren’t making you feel heard, if it helps I got upset and didn’t feel heard either!
But then what if they don’t want me to say anything? God I can’t stand myswlf
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I just found myself absentmindedly holding and rubbing the hand of my Liam hfjone backpack what am I
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I miss silver spoon he was so cute too bad he’s DEAD. :/ (this is how I cope I’ve barely left my room unless I need water or decide to rot outside instead of my bed for 30 minutes I’m miserable and no one will leave me alone) he was so cute and silly look at him… At least he appeared in ii17 and was thinking: QUEEEN QUEEEEEEN when Taco walked in I love that little detail everyone is frowning but him the stimmerrrr the autismmmm
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It’d be so funny if I went live and yapped about ii while doing my homework
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I drew silver spoon for September 1st ^^
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Bleh o don’t like me today
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Making the equiviatkat of a notes app tamt but it’s youtubr becaaus im delusionbw
Ivvjjust wabbt ybe hearne but I cant soeak why dont anyone want to hear I dony wantss sore I dlnt like it I dont tmlike the metal stop stop stop its bad like nev im nstorry I font know what I dif i didnt mean to let mysekd me heatd I wad just sad i dint want then to goy why
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HAVING A SQUISH IS SO AWSOME BECAUSE I WANNA HOLD THEM WHILE I SHOW HER HEATHERS AND HAVE THEM PLAY STARDEW FOR THE FIRST TIME AND WE GET MARRIED IN STARDEW BECAUSE SORRY BABYGIRL LEAH AND BABYGIRL HALEY BUT HE'S MORE IMPORTANT AND WE BOTH REWATCH II FOR THE 500TH TIME AND CRY OVER CANDLE'S ELIMINATION AND THEY PAT ME ON THE HEAD WHILE I CRINGE OVER SILVER SPOON BEING A LITTLE BITCH /AFF BUT THERE'S NONE OF THAT CRUSH ANXIETY LIKE 'DO THEY LIKE ME BACK' BECAUSE IT'S FRIENDSHIP!!
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Me whenever agender character: :OO THEY’RE LIKE ME!! THEY’RE AGENDER!! THEY’RE ME!!!
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RATATATA WHY IS "hey little girl" so real rn. Like. I relate it to my bullies because I want to die and make them suffer in regret, but I also know that they lack so much empathy it's not worth it. And they make me hurt myself bAcK iN mY dAy. And the only reason I posted this here was because I don't wanna worry my tumblr moots.
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Hi I’m Mc!
Agender,Lesbian
13
Just some random person who stumbled apon my YouTube dreams.
My usernames:
• Cheezy Blueberry Studios •
Channel is over 3 years old
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