Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
Message for YouTube
I haven't posted in 4 days. Let me tell you why and what will happen.
◇ Thank you all for the journey you gave me. I was able to find temporary joy in animation for a while, It started off with Mochi cat, subway surfers, crochet, and mha. I loved finding new interests, and they made me feel happy. COD taught me how to animate. While it was challenging, I loved it.
◇ I was also to make many friends along the way. During 2023-2024 school year, I was at my lowest. On youtube, I was able to talk to you all, and it made me happy. I would get to know your interests and you all better. Everyone is different and unique. Then, I transitioned to Discord and met even more people. I loved helping you alk, but I realized something.
◇ My mental health has been deteriorating. It has been 2023, and it still is. I need to put myself first for once. You might see this as selfish, but everyone needs to give themself some time. I haven't been happy in two years. I have been constantly stressed, struggling to sleep/eat, and I wasn't able to enjoy my birthday, Christmas, or New Years. I didn't feel like this until months ago. I stayed silent not to worry anyone.
◇ Track season is also coming up. That is the only thing that brings me joy and makes me feel alive. Even with that small thing, it's only temporary. As soon as I'm done running, the joy is gone. I made the first track meet, so I will focus on that. It seems to help my mental health. I might consider posting my track meets on youtube, but I'm not sure.
◇ I have been experiencing things at my school, which has made my mental state worse. I tried many things to solve my problems but they just don't work. No one knows about my problems, and they assume things. They only know the baseline of what they can see, not whats underneath. The best way to describe it is, "Everyone knows my problems, but no one else can solve them," Noose by Nessa Barert.
◇ Now, what does this mean? I will be leaving, maybe a week, or until April when track season ends, I don't know. All I know is that I need to focus on making myself see the joy in life again.
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Channel Update
I decided to cook something similar to last time. I didn't have tomates, so I used ham. It's really similar. The only seeable difference is the bread. I used a tortia this time.
Track season has started, which means I won't be online as much. On Discord, I think y'all figured it out. I haven't been talking as much as I normally do. But those without it, here's a headup. I will still be online, just not as much. I also made the first track meet. I'm running a 400-meter dash (😭). Someone please help me.
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This deotetsnt smells really good. I prefer to have all matching scents instead of colliding. Peach, lavender, coconut, and cherry are some of my favorites. I have the EOS Jasmine peach lotion at home. It's a soft scent that doesn't overpower the room.
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I tried making the breakfast bagel. This took me 15 minutes instead of 5. I didn't have avacado or spinish, so I improvised. I used four eggs. Lettuce, cucumber, and cheese. When I folded it, the sandwatch split. I think I put too many eggs in it. I would recommend still.
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Even google is annoyed with this 😭
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Completed my first journey in block blqst
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ON PINTEREST YOU CAN FIND THE CUTEST THINGS
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It snowed out here in Texas. We rarely get any. It was less than an inch. It was atill nice to see. Thanks to that, we got a day off of school.
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Wrench got terminated, and we don't know why. He is missed by many people. I hope he comes back with a new account.
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I'm currently 15 and a freshman in high school. I do track and field running sprints.
I want to be a fashion designer in the future. When I draw my dresses in my notebook, I feel a calming presence as I lock in. I want my dresses to also express others. I love dresses yet never wore one, which is ironic.
I am looking toward something where I can express my creativity and build. I love writing stories. I have one on wattpad. It's called Corrupted Graveyard.
I'm in the mha community, and I p stay away from the fandom. The community, which is what I'm in, is different from the fandom.
Denki Kaminari is my favorite character. I started watching MHA because I saw a youtube edit that said Deku lost his smile. I wanted to see emo Deku, so I started watching. I was quickly addicted. This is the first anime I watched, actually.
Anyways, thank you for reading this, and have a good day/night!