Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
happy new year everyone! it's 2025 for me!
i was planning on making a 2024 reflection video but I didn't have the time to
I'd just like to say thank you to everyone for sticking around and thanks to the people who watch all my stuff. I'm so so grateful for all of it.
i know i just said this a few days ago but just wanted to say it since this whole year was where i started this channel, made videos I'm proud of, and videos people liked. I'm so happy i did all of that and things went this way
i definitely wish I'd worked more on this but it's okay, i still did a lot. here's to hoping i unleash my potential further in 2025!
hope all of you have a great 2025 as well
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i really wanted to make something special for christmas/new years and had some ideas but i don't think i'm going to be able to (you wont believe this but im going on a roadtrip... the last one of the year i guess LOL)
so just wanted to say merry chrsitmas! and happy holidays! hope the last few days of the year treat you well
i'm so, so thankful for all of you for being here, the channel feels a bit dead lately but everytime i do post a video, they are watched by some people, and while 20 views might feel like a small number these days, that's still a considerable amount of people showing up, so i'm thankful for all of you that actually watch my videos, it means a lot to me.
i'm still struggling with my mental health so i can't promise i'll be making any banger videos or anything, but i can assure you that i plan on making a lot of videos next year, more than i did in the last few months at least lol
so yeah, thanks a lot, have a good rest of the year and a good 2025 ! <3
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trying to make a simple ramble-y let's play esque style video on Minecraft but i teared up while recording it and even now that I'm editing it memories flood back in of my childhood and I just can't believe that I feel so much for a game when the video I'm making for it starts off with "i never reallly played Minecraft much in my life"
i feel like at this point I'll have to make a 1 hour long edited let's play with the commentary being me playing and remembering things
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lowkey considering starting dumping some massive videos that are just funny moments from games and stuff bc i still do have a lot of clips to dumb that don't make it into the videos themselves but... idk i feel liek that breaks the Aesthetic of the channel but idk maybe i can use a second account or something for those? idfk it takes me 2 months to make a video these days so LOL who cares ig?
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laughing so hard as soon as i started that last yakuza 0 stream i check my channel to open my chat and i see that i lost a subscriber. i mean i expected the new video to not do well bc who wants to see someone vent their feelings but i was NOT expecting to LOSE people. not that i care anymore i'm not "focusing" on youtube but it's still hilarious, i did not see that coming
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hi! a new video has been made! nothing much, just me talking about how depressed i am. mostly just venting but it was a video i meant to make for the longest time ever, explaining why things have been so dry here lately. not saying i'm back, i might still never make a video again, but at least i managed to get my thoughts out there. that's what this channel is for, watch it if you want, bbye
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJSRX...
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not fully sure i've got everything figured out but decided i might as well make text posts about how i'm dealing with my eternal burnout/depression affecting my work thingy
i think one thing i realised was that i *have* to stick to that mantra of "i make videos about things that touched me" bc if i try to make a video about something that *didn't* then i won't have the same drive to make it. something something adhd? if i try to make videos "on a schedule" and try to make it more like "other good youtubers" who make videos more methodically than on whims, i'll fall into this "ugh this is just work" cycle
my "ongoing" video is one on the titanic 2 movie which i just can't get myself to work on despite my love for the titanic, bc the movie itself did not leave me feeling anything special other than mild amusement. all of the videos i worked on before that i made easily were from this burning desire to tell the world about something i felt or experienced
now with less pressure to "get this shit off the ground" as i'm more convinced i could get a job in game dev, i feel like i can take it less seriously and aim to make videos that are more focused around my passion as opposed to a need to "make something"
i really complicate things so much for myself lol
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yall not ready for this
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do i cave in and start remixing videos into shorts or do I maintain my integrity... hm...
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hi since i've been streaming more lately i thought i might give twitch a try. can't be sure when (or even if) bc most people do say i should stick to youtube but couldn't hurt to try now and then (esp when youtubes discoverability isn't helping) but follow me there if you want to know when i'm streaming (if i am)!
https://www.twitch.tv/spinelesscreature/
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she/her / i make videos on things that touched my heart (games, movies, anime, whatever) non binary and neurodivergent AND from india. yes, i'm struggling.
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