【Happy's_chan★】

【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 12 hours ago

It's a bit like a story from the past.
It's not a good thing, so if you're uncomfortable with it I don't recommend watching it.
I might delete this post soon
It's okay. I just want to tell you my worries.

I started to feel more and more depressed about four or five years ago.
It's a reality.
This is a true story.
At first, I was subjected to mild harassment.
Well, I thought it was just a common form of harassment.
But one day, a kid tried to drop a chair on my head. Someone managed to save me. From that day on, I became afraid.
A few months later, I was in a class with a very strict teacher. If I had a quiet voice, I would be scolded until I could speak louder. At the time, I had a quiet voice, so I felt pressured.
From that point on, my depression worsened, I started blaming myself, and I began self-harming.
Moreover, the security situation in the class was very bad.
A few months later, a kid from the same class started kicking me almost every time.
It didn't hurt, but I wondered why they kicked me. At that time, I was still fine.
But there was a lot of bad stuff said about me.
A few months later, when I moved up to the next grade, I ended up in a class where I didn't have many friends.
The security situation was also bad.
Of course, that was expected.
There were a lot of problem children, and it was hard to find people I got along with. I didn't get along with the teachers either.
There were so many problem children that the teacher scolded them every day.
One day I had a mental breakdown. I hated myself. I even got into a fistfight with a kid in my class.
And when I changed classes again, I was placed in a class that seemed a little safer.
Gradually, I made more friends and found some people I got along with.
But there's one problem: a Children in the same class is bullying me.
It's just two people...
One of them mainly uses abusive language. He has forced himself on me and touched my things. He has almost broken them. The other one is the type of person who takes out his frustration on me if he doesn't like something. He doesn't listen. However, he is popular in class. But he has a bad personality. He apologizes, but he shows no remorse at all.
Also, there were times when both of them were yelling abuse at me at the same time.
My friend was also a victim.
It was really gross.
It's not just about school, it's about home too.
At that time, I insisted to one of my parents, "Don't worry about me!" I think I didn't want them to worry about me.
But then one of my parents got angry and for some reason confiscated my smartphone and games, and told me things like, "You'll have trouble growing up if you do that!" and finally became violent towards me. At that time, I wanted to disappear. I'm sure one of my parents was thinking, "I've been working hard for my daughter..."
I've solved it now though
This is getting long, so I'll stop here.
For now, I am still being harassed almost every day at school and other places. I am also being tied down. I think about disappearing almost every day.
It was hard
But the only thing that saves me is the kind viewers and fans. I'm really grateful.
Please love me even though I'm like this
I feel
a little better after talking about it

(postscript)
Don't get me wrong, I haven't been diagnosed with depression yet.
I used the translation function to write this article, so some parts may be a little misleading.

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 2 days ago

Oh, okay. Let's do a Q&A session.
Everyone, feel free to ask any questions you have in the comments section! You can ask as many as you want!
But please don't ask too many personal questions. Even if you do, you won't be hired.
I won't use questions that I don't like! Also, if there are more questions than I expected, I might not be able to use good questions because of the number. But I think almost all comments will be used.
Once I get enough questions I'll make a video.

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 3 days ago

Should we do a Q&A corner soon?

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 3 days ago

As most people probably know, I am Japanese. (?)

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 4 days ago

Well, I think I'll get back into action soon.
Well, I've relaxed a bit.
(I don't know if the negative aspects have been improved...lol)
However, even if he returns, his posting frequency may decrease a little.
I need to get serious about creating videos of better quality.
Also, it's about time I started getting serious about my own creation (anime?).
Thank you for waiting
I may also say negative things sometimes,
I'll do my best to live up to your expectations!

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 1 week ago

We've reached 20,000 subscribers! Thank you!

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【Happy's_chan★】
Posted 1 week ago

everyone!
皆！

I have an announcement for everyone! (?)
I've been saying some negative things for a while, haven't I? So I realized it when a kind person told me that I needed to take a break
Thank you for worrying about me!
So recently, a lot has been going on in real life
I've been feeling more depressed than before I've started to feel a lot of nastiness towards my own work, and I've lost the motivation to do anything anymore.
So I've been thinking about taking a break.
So I'd like to take a break from my YouTube activities for a while.
Even though I'm taking a break, I'll be back in a week or two!
I don't know when I'll be back, but I'll be back when I feel a little better.
Stay tuned!

皆にお知らせがある！(？)
私前から少しネガティブな事言ってたじゃん？それで優しい人から「休憩も必須」とか言ってくれた時から気づいたの
心配してくれてありがとう！
それで最近リアルで色々あって
前より落ち込み？が悪化してきて
自分の作品に対しても色々な嫌味を感じるようになって、もう何もする気がなくなった。
それで休憩を考えていました。
それで少しYouTube活動などを休憩したいと思います。
休憩といっても多分1週間〜2週間で戻ってくるよ！
いつ戻るかは分からないけど、少し気分が良くなったら戻ってくるよ
待っててね！

Oh, I forgot to mention! I think the community will still be posting even during the break!

言い忘れました！休憩中でもコミュニティは投稿すると思います！