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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
KV-4tress moment
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Hello kids - me again.
Ho boy. How are we all? It's been two years since I last used this tab, annnddd.. *checks notes* two months since my last upload, over a year since my last proper upload, and more than three years since the last time I made a video that I was proud of. Oh dear.
I know this channel has gone downhill in the last few.. uh.. years. I basically gave up on unicum guides (since that meme died out + I stopped caring, got bored of it) and, well... "life" happened. In a nutshell, I graduated high school in 2019, and I'm about eight or ten months away from graduating university now. Life comes at ya fast, huh?
My life has changed in so many ways - I got new friends, lost them, some I don't care for, some I miss terribly. And this channel kinda fell by the wayside in the process of all that happening, especially as my emotional and mental state deteriorated. Even when I thought I was "better", I wasn't.
I never really saw this as much of anything other than a pet project I left in the background of my actual life. I liked making videos, I liked reading your comments and suggestions, and I liked the fact that so many of you seem to think that I'm "underrated" in my video-making skills. Thank you, for that, by the way. I appreciate it. It's very nice of you to say. I think the most I got out of this was about $120 in Adsense money lmao, and now they've changed the rules so I'm not eligible anymore. lol. lmao.
So, what's to be done? Why am I making this? Well, for the last few years, frankly, I've been going through a crisis of identity. On this channel, I mean. I did have a bit of such a crisis in real life, too, and I'm working through that. I made a bunch of videos that're kind of all over the place and not really fitting with this channel's "theme", of which I'm not entirely sure what it is. Yeah, I like making videos on tanks n shit but I also wanna make videos on other stuff too - and that's all well and good, although the result is you guys get confused on what it is I make, and I know for a fact most of you are just in it for the tanks and nothing else. Which is fine, I like tanks too, but it is a bit of a drag for me if I wanna make something else. End of the day, though, I make what I want, and you will consume whatever it is I make >:).
Lately, I've been going through a lot of changes in my life. A LOT. Over the last two years I've done a lot of personal growth and had to learn a lot of hard but ultimately good lessons. And that was going fine, though the process was impeded by my own actions, but in the last three months that's changed. I met someone who made me realise things about myself that I hadn't had the guts to confront before, and no one else had the courage to tell me. It has inspired me to a sincere change of heart about almost every facet of my life, and I've become - and am still becoming - a new person as a result.
So, basically, I'm going through a personal renaissance at the moment, and I've changed quite a lot as a result. Got it? Cool. What's this channel got to do with it?
Well, end of the day, though making videos was often a lot of work and very time consuming, it was fun - mostly in seeing the end product and people's reactions to it. I have ADHD and Autism, so when I've got my mind set on something, I work in overdrive to make it. And that's something I actually did with a lot of these videos. Part of this personal rebirth is combining the once-lost optimism and innocent, childish spirit I put into a lot of these videos and the energy of this channel with the hardened cynicism I've grown as an adult. I'm doing my best to not be so pessimistic nowadays, and hey. One day at a time, it gets better.
I know about two years ago I made some New Years video talking about how I was gonna get back into things.. and then I didn't - well, I can't promise going back to weekly uploads, especially not now; but I want to try going back to making these videos. No promises on frequency, but they were fun. I'm limited in my capacity to make stuff right now - I'm in regional Western Australia at the moment and all I have with me is my laptop - but frankly half the content on this channel was made using this trusty old MacBook Air, so who's to say. Don't get your hopes up - but I'm redownloading world of tanks blitz and updating iMovie as I type this. I don't want to become some big YouTuber with hundreds of thousands or millions of subscribers, I think this small.. "Community" is fine the way it is. But it would be cool to go back to.. this. I think it'd be good for me.
TL;DR: I'm going to go back to making videos. Properly. No idea when - considering the fact that I'm currently living in a caravan in rural Western Australia - or on what - probably tanks - but for my own sake, I will.
I've got an old note somewhere in my phone on video ideas that I wrote when I was 16 - I'm 20 now. I'm sure I can dig it up.
Starman
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I wanna make a redux of this guide because like,, my bros,, that framerate is D I S G U S T I N G
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What games should I stream?
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Streaming minecraft in 15 minutes
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I’m gonna try to do a livestream tomorrow at 10am AEST (Australian Eastern Standard Time), since I figured out how the streaming software works
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Additionally if I made livestreams would y’all watch them or nah
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Hey I got Hearts of Iron IV should I make a video on it
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It’s over, it’s done
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Hahaa, I'm so fucked
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Videos about games