Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
hope iâll actually have the motivation to finish this animatic (pretty short one btw) or smth like that
not gonna be the best though as I havenât drawn my shadz in a while..
iâm real sorry for not posting in almost a year, iâve been focusing on my family and my health especially, as things are finally starting to get better and I donât want that to change
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Sooo⌠Iâd like to say this to get it off my mind. Itâll just rlly make me feel better clarifying this, as Iâve been thinking of doing for a long time. I am not quitting. I doubt I am. Ig Iâm enjoying this verryyyyyy long break-
Yes, ik how long Iâve been gone. Honestly, perhaps a couple months after I made my channel Iâve just gotten stressed thinking âK⌠Iâm passed my 3-4 days. I rlly need to make a edit. But Iâm sorta tired, and sometimes I just wanna be with my family.â And to make it worse, school started abt 2 weeks ago, my mother recently had surgery, my ears have seriously been ACHING so I can DeFiNitLy get EarPods in easily, and some stuff that doesnât need to be said⌠And in school Iâm really not doing the best I could be. My grades are quite low, and school has always been hard but this year⌠I can already tell itâs gonna be miserable. And that distractions of trying to post a lot isnât helping.
I do love editing and finding edit audios and getting all these ideas. But for some reason the motivation for editing is hard to get. The point is Iâm not quitting but Iâll continue being pretty inactive⌠I truly donât know when Iâll be posting normally again. Or if Iâll start posting every once on a while. I swear Iâm rlly trying, but I also donât want to get further behind cuz I already have trouble learning this sh*t. School rlly sucks đ. I really wish I had the motivation but obviously I donât.
So there ya have it-
Iâm rlly missing my channel but most importantly my subs and definitely my friends. Hope things will get better at least soon. Unlikely, but itâs making me feel better to say it.
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Just a drawing Iâm rlly proud of xd
Obviously still working on it but this is what I have so far ^^
Her nameâs Midna btw!! <333
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I rlly donât care if anyone even pays attention to this but Iâd like to vent abt it- (Iâm just mad abt it ngl)
So I barley drink any water, it just annoys me and I donât this the taste of it. It was probaly around 11/12 when I was out fetching my dog in the hot sun. I had also only drunken enough to take a couple pills in the morning, so obviously not very much. I felt rlly overheated eventually so after abt 20 minutes I went inside to put ice on my forehead to try to cool down and it didnât rlly work. I was just rlly dehydrated ig. After a while I kept telling my mom how it hurt a lot and stuff and she said Iâm definitely dehydrated and should go drink some water. I mean- she was right but I didnât listen to her-
She wasnât in the room when this happened but I felt like I was gonna pass out and my head hurt SO bad. Things started to look fuzzy and I felt like I was gonna fall over. Luckily I was next to a chair so I quickly sat down. I later lied down and closed my eyes and tbh I was scared. I felt a little better later so I could eventually stand. Using that to my advantage I went to go cup water. I have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) and itâs a little different for everyone. Like I know a boy who is terrified that any food thatâs in his house is poisoned so his parents have to order him takeout every night. Sometimes OCD doesnât make that much sense but it is 100% a real thing. I hope I explained that all ok. My mom knows more abt it than I do. But anyways part of mine is thinking everything is dirty in a way. Every time Iâm done touching something that isnât my devices I immediately go to wash my hands. I freak out and have a breakdown if I touch the dining table or one of two coffee tables. Iâm sorta embarrassed abt this one but I canât even use our forks, knives, spoons, and all that. I seriously eat every meal with chopsticks. I like to use them ngl but itâs not like itâs a choice for me. All this must seem ridiculous and I know itâs all clean deep down but I just still have that feeling. Thereâs much more but the one Iâm focusing on rn is that I have to wipe off the rim of cups with a paper towel in order to drink from them. And.. I only trust myself to do it, so I would allow no one else to get me water. Which.. I still could barley walk without getting a major headache. So I wouldnât let anyone get me water that day/night-
I was drinking and later my mom came in and saw how bad I looked. She seriously tried to get me to agree to go to the hospital to get an IV⌠I lied and said Iâm feeling better. I had a whole lot of trauma with needles so Iâm seriously TERRIFIED of them. After that I was was chugging water down trying to escape the possibility of an IV. I drank so much that my stomach started hurting then. Miserable. Absolutely miserable. Too much to write but I was lying down all night (well just from 5 âtill 10) on the couch. Just lying there miserable snuggling my dog. He did make it mentally better tho. When it was 10 my mom helped me to bed and stuff but she said I should get good rest and go to bed right away. I couldnât help staying up âtill 12:30 tho-
Woke up feeling ok-ish. Got out of the shower and and bad again. Not near as bad as last night but my head felt sore and my throat just hurt-
Just generally felt dry ig. I drank a lot and by 1 I was fine. Still donât think itâd be good to run around and move a lot âtill tomorrow. But at least Iâm feeling better ig. Anything to not go to the hospital
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My videos will be mainly edits, although I am currently taking a very long break to focus on personal reasons, and I have no date for when (or if) Iâll be back.
(I am female but refer to me with any pronouns you want, it doesnât really matter to me)
Also, I am a minor, so please donât be weird.
The fandoms Iâm in are Sonic the Hedgehog and The Legend of Zelda, so you can expect those.
My main ships are sonadow, shadilver, knuxadow, sonknux, and blazamy. It doesnât mean I think itâs canon or think it could even work, they just make me happy and thatâs all that matters, so please do not argue about this. We all have opinions.
My idols:
- Sonikkusbae Edits
- Intensity. EXE
- shqdqow
- Koudoku
- Heephis Animations
- madnessmar
- Chaotic Harlow