Welcoem to posts!!
in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c
I re-uploaded my birth story with a minor edit! (:
https://youtu.be/5SQvurEAN88
Letting my story be free and out there removes the power that the trauma had over me. If you don't have anything supportive to say about my personal experiences, then please keep it to yourself. ๐
My intentions are only to share and encourage people to stay strong going through rough times.
Thank you, love yall!!!!
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Took my pregnancy/birth story down.
I guess I am just not ready to open myself up and share the hardest thing Iโve ever gone through with the internet.
I had a few people critique my experiences and I am just not mentally ready for that. I donโt owe anyone access to my heart and innermost feelings, so I guess I will just keep my story close to my heart for now.
Thanks to those who did offer words of support ๐ the whole theme was the fact that I overcame stuff and YOU can too. I still believe that and want to share that message regardless.
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Hi Friends!
I plan to come back to YouTube soon! (Not that I was ever officially away, but I have been inactive). ๐
I have been thinking long and hard and I am pretty sure I am going to change my channel name to Munimade or something similar.
Maybe MunimadeWithLove? Muni--made? Munimade With Love? What do YOU like?! Please help me ahhaha
I just don't identify with being an internet 'personality' anymore and I would rather just focus my content I create around my business, and my hobbies. Municorny just feels like the past me and represents my past goals as a Twitch gaming streamer. I just feel that changing the name would feel better and more aligned. I am probably way over thinking it, but it's tough because I have been known as 'Municorny' online forever!!!! That's where my shop name came from after all... 'Muni' 'Made' because well.. I make stuff ๐ I still want to be referred to as 'M' or 'Muni' pleaseeeee. M is short for my actual name and its just honestly my name now lol.
Would love your input. I know its easy to read these things and scroll past but I genuinely need some outsider perspective because I am way too stressed about this lol.
PS. I plan to return to live streaming! I will be doing them on a set schedule (probably monthly to start) and I will likely have a bit of a structure to them with topic segments. Pretty much like the podcast was but LIVE so I can hangout with you all and answer any questions. Exciting things to come! I feel awake and like myself again after the last year being in a pregnancy and new mom fog.
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I am having an online baby shower soon! ๐
April 29th, 3pm central time, LIVE on my YT channel
Really, I am just excited to hangout and catch up. If you want to send a little something to be opened up for the baby, we do have a registry.
We would especially love to build our collection of books ๐, and diapers are *always* welcome. ๐ถ๐ป
babylist.com/list/babytje-k
My mail address is:
Municorny
P.O. Box 222,
Fate, TX 75132
Baby boy is due to be here on June 22nd (or sooner, we shall see!). I won't be sharing his name online so we need to figure out what we can officially call him lol! I think I like Munibaby what do you think??? โจ
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Sooooo excited to be LIVE this Sunday right here on the channel with a fun gender reveal party for my baby!!! ๐
Sunday, January 15th, 3pm central time.
I am going to be testing a long list of silly wives tales and ya'll will be able to place your guesses before I do the big reveal at the end! PLUS I will be announcing my online baby shower date and registry information for anyone looking to help us out in taking care of our sweet new baby. ๐ถ๐ผ
See you guys there!
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WHERE HAVE I BEEN?! :O
TW: pregnancy feelings.
Well as many of you know I am pregnant with my first child. ๐ I wanted to take some time to share a little bit about that and how it's been going for me.
This pregnancy is definitely soooo wanted and planned and I wanted to start off by saying that I have always wanted to be a mother, so I am incredibly grateful to be blessed enough that my body is doing its thing - and growing a life. I know for so many that isn't the case and my heart goes out to you. I consider myself so fortunate that I was able to get pregnant and stay pregnant so far (3 months down, 6 to go!!!) so that adds an extra layer of complexity and disappointment in myself for not really.. enjoying it.
But I am not going to lie to sugarcoat anything to you. Pregnancy has not at all been the experience I wanted and thought it would be. I have been *extremely* sick. Both mentally and physically. Most days I am just in survival mode, doing whatever I can to make it by. I've still been working very hard with Munimade - and have recently just went through a major transition to move the business out of my house and into a separate location. Not only have I been dealing with the holiday rush and stress but I have had to adjust to a whole new schedule and move all of my things, adding a commute to work into the mix. Once I get home and take a minute to unwind my body just collapses into exhaustion, and sickness. ๐คฎ I feel like all of my vitality is being drained from me - I have no interest in creating, in hobbies, or in anything I used to love. I feel lethargic, and like any nutrients I do manage to keep inside my body (rather than in the toilet) goes straight to baby (hopefully, so far as I know the baby is healthy and growing). But there is just nothing left over for ... me /:
I am really not wanting to complain to act ungrateful for the miracle of life but maybe it should be normalized more that women speak out more about the non-glamourous parts of pregnancy? Some women have a wonderful time with it but for me I think it has been eye opening how dark and lonely it can truly get. So if that is the case for you and you are pregnant, trying to become pregnant, or struggled in the past - you aren't alone. I think it is even more mentally confusing bc I wanted it and hoped for it and now that its a reality , I hate it? I feel like a bad mom. Can I even be considered a mom yet? I sure as heck don't feel like one. I feel like an imposter and maybe that's why I am being punished by being so miserable in pregnancy. I feel like I am incapable of handling the challenges ahead. I feel weak and stupid that I even feel the need to cry out on a random YouTube community post like this. I just want to feel the love and excitement I have always dreamed of in becoming a mother, but so far, I am still waiting. I am sad that my expectations of how fun and wonderful pregnancy would be are not being met. I feel sad that I am not happier and feeling more connected to the little person growing inside of me. They deserve that.
So I guess I am just asking for some prayers, love, support, whatever - being sent my way. I have hope that it will get better soon. Everyone says that the 2nd trimester of pregnancy is so much better and you feel like a person again and not a sickly, incubator. This is a really vulnerable post for me, and I am sure there will be people who say I'm selfish and to get over it. Or leave the oh so helpful comments of "just you wait! you will never sleep again! welcome to the next 18 years of your life where they drain everything you have out of you LOLOLOL" .... so. not. helpful.
And not the parent I want to be. I want to be interested, engaged, proud, committed, and HAPPY to nurture my little ones life and be there for anything they need for the next 100 years if necessary!!! But I want to be be okay too.. I want my health back, and my energy back. I want to feel like me again. I also want to *normalize* that it is okay to not be okay, and its okay and ADMIRABLE to ask for help because its really hard to do and put yourself in a vulnerable spot like that.
That's all I have to say I guess. ๐
I wanted to post this on YouTube because I feel guilty DAILY for not uploading or wanting to be active at all online really. I guess I felt like I owed an explanation or whatever. I also just really need to hear from moms who have walked before me that it's going to be okay ๐ญ
I plan to make videos soon. I want to talk about all of this and more in video format, AND I really want to have a fun gender reveal stream in January to try to lighten my spirits. Hopefully that sounds good and you guys would enjoy hanging out with me for that โจ
Anyways, talk soon. And If I don't respond to comments just know I am reading them.
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Update!!!
Whenever I plan a live stream I will try to schedule it at LEAST the morning of, if not the day before. If you want to know my feelings on strict schedule just watch my podcast haha.
I bought a bunch of Nancy Drew games that I am itching to play for spooky season so I think when I stream next I might try out playing one of those. I am hoping that on Sunday I feel good enough to hang out but we shall see.
The med discontinuation is finally hitting me and I feel completely ran over. I hope to get my energy back soon but it could still be a week or two of me feeling this way. ๐ข Its gotten so bad that I thought I had covid but I think I am just going through normal withdrawal.
Anyways, thanks for reading my ramble. I always feel so worried that people are waiting on me for things and I just need to make it very clear that I don't follow any kind of precise schedule. That just isn't my style when it comes to YouTube ๐คช
PS. My very first run of Munimade Diamond Paintings (and some other surprises I haven't told y'all about yet) get here tomorrow!!!! Should I unbox them on the channel!?! :D
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Hi! I'm M, owner of the Munimade shop and lover of all things crafty! I am willing to try any and every craft there is, but the fiber arts will always hold my heart. My main craft of choice is crocheting, and my favorite thing to make is amigurumi (crochet plushies)! I plan to use this channel as a way for me share my journey as an artist and small business owner, and I hope you will find useful tips, inspiration and also friendship here.