I left and found new hobbies to do like a healthy mindset. I now suffer from PTSD from many things I didn't realize until I saw a therapist over a half year ago. It only triggers my thoughts if I stayed, even writing this message. I am terribly sorry for those who've I've hurt in the past and I wish I can apologize to each individual person whom I've hurt, but I gotta face the facts that people will never forgive and I understand, I am not asking for forgiveness, I am just hoping for you to move on with your lives and be happy. I just wish I got help long ago.
I am not deleting this channel cuz I want to keep my old content archive.
I've thought about leaving a Contact VIA email, but then my triggering thoughts thought that people will just attack me out of anger and that just sounds like a waste of your time to put on me and I don't need that in my life, so truly farewell.