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TW : mention of slitting/suicide
fuck my presents, ts yr for christmas i genuinely want fuckin help. ive been gettin yelled at for either no reason or for the stupidest reasons ts year. ive gotten better at crying in SILENCE. yk wht tht says abt me? tht i keep my emotions to myself until its too much i break down wherever tf im at. im tired of it. mom, dad, n whoever tf got me gifts ts year. fuckin return tht shit atp. i want help. i NEED help. istg im near my breaking point. 1 of these days WILL be the day i am going to ask for help. bcz im tired of ts bs. its not fair. βi broke my heart trying to love hers.β thts exactly wht i did. ts is my 9th say IN A ROW, crying over her. its pissin me off, im annoyed.. why is ts happening to me.? why cant i move on.. she has, shes better now, so why am i not..? why am i not healed.. WHY am i still MOURNING over her. shouldnt she be the 1 crying..? she lost so many things.. i only lost her. whts the difference.? did all those things for her add up to herself for me.? or do i js genuinely care tht much abt her. its so pathetic how yu can love some1 sm n yu think ur relationship w them will last FOREVER. until it ends n thy end up bein the person who hurts you the most. its not fair, n im tired.. please, PLEASE god. im fuckin beggin yu atp. let me be happy. let me GET OVER HER. its not fair im spendin my Christmas crying over some1 who clearly didnt deserve my love if thy did wht thy did. if thy moved on n managed to be happy, why cant i do the same? why is my brain and heart now ALLOWING me to do the same. its not fuckin fair.. ts world has been cruel to me my whole entire life. my life has been shit from such a young age n ive barely realized it since i was 11 or 12. (1-2 yrs ago.) im tired. im annoyed. im heartbroken. im in pain. im hurting. SO fuckin bad. i wnt ts to be over, i wnt ts to be gone. i dont wnt to leave ts shitty earth yet b4 seeing if i have a purpose or not.. its not fuckin fair. n to think ive been crying IN SCHOOL. in my 3rd per. where its lit so noticeable but thank god no 1 sees. but the point is.. shes hurt me so bad to the point i have to cry in school. n whn i acc have to show my face like minutes later im suddenly fine like nothin ever happened! let me be happy. or let my pain n suffering be gone. thts all i wnt for christmas. ts is a cry for help. i cannot. theres nothin more i wnt thn to slit my wrists or throat, or smt. smt to cut. but i genuinely cannot. the cuts n words tht are currently still on my hand are enough proof i wnt to get off ts earth. if i disappear without a trace i think yall wld know wht happened. im most likely dead.
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oh shit ty all sm for 2k i barely noticed i luv u π. ill keep my promise n give ya a big smooch <3. iβm so grateful ty again!
(ik i prolly donβt seem happy but iβm srry for tht, i was crying over bkdk n mha things ππ.)
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oh yh 9th day in a row cryingggg <3.
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i js seen a tt vid tht said βa year canβt change anyone.β yes it can. bro, in January i still had all my mental issues but iβm pretty sure i never had suicidal thoughts. n look at me now, a fuckin year later n thinkin abt suicide everyday. i cut my hands w a fuckin pencil. mainky bc of ONE person. get out of head, iβm begging you..
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see wht i mean whn i be sayin βmy dad be yellin at me/us for no reason at times.β
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yβall wnt a laugh reveal π? my brother was playin his game n makin me laugh like sm rn π.. tbh i needed tht tho, even tho heβs 1 of the ppl causin me the most pain he still managed to make me laugh whn i needed it.
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whn my tia seen me editing eycs bday vid n i got all silent cz i was NOT tryna have an adult know abt my channel π.
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7th graders make me wna kms π. bitch how tf yu gna act like ur so cool w tht busted ass haircut of urs π. idk who yu tryna be but it ainβt some1 cool bitch π«. drop dead ho ainβt no 1 gna miss yu.
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8th day in a row crying
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ok why tf yu gotta call me out like tht ππ«..
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life be hard but i be harder heh .. π€€
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