@Serenity-s4o

1 month ago

Yes it's true I expected my friends to heal my wounds and traumas i had since childhood and they took advantage of that i didn't understood them I was so desperate for friendship bcoj i was so alone i had no friends in my life no one. So i changed myself despite people hurt i behaved it didn't affect me. I was ready to do anything to save friendship i want them to stay in my life. I want someone to be in my life. But because of that i distracted from my studies I was living like a dead person my dreams my passion all gone dead. I became people pleasor. From inside i knew its not right i even experience a power stopping to go in wrong people watever happening my life was all in grief every day and night i just cry listens to all the craps from the people i considered friends. I was so lost. I started thinking am unworthy bcoj of me everyone is hurt i made them cry. My aim only became watever the situation i will not leave friendship i will prove that am a good friend. I became so blind that I was unable to make a difference who is right and wrong. They used me they started using me in the way which is unappropriate then i started getting nightmares of the time in my childhood when i was molested i use to faint and for 1 year i was just lying on my bed crying i felt like there's no strength in my legs. I didn't want to live bcoj of guilt sufferrings i cried for help I cried loud Jesus for help. Then one day i heard a voice that My child you are not alone i was always with you went away from me i love you. Jesus revealed everything to me i repented for my sins. People sees me like a weak person with low self esteem always scared, failure with no job but Jesus still loves me apart from who i am how i look i felt his love for me and since then i know how much progress i made from inside there's peace may be people can't see from outside bt i feel from inside and soon everyone will see the Glory of God. He guided me step by step he lifted me up from the dark place where i was hiding myself. Jesus showed me light. And he's still working on me healing me he even taught me to forgive. And finally i got my best friend and he's Jesus christ my heavenly father😊 I love you Jesus thank you for everythin

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