@EmbersNAutumn

8 months ago

I was playing around with my android phones camera cuz I'm unfamiliar and relaxing and it said to focus in something and it will translate it. I grabbed the closes thing I had and it was my several year old little notepad that looks like nurse scrubs it's very cute. And my camera highlights what it says on the scrubs shirt which is Nurse's Save Lives. Then all of a sudden I clicked translate and it translated it to Hebrew! I taught hmm what does Nurse sound like in Hebrew and it is achot. It also means sister too. But it means a medical Nurse and even said medical assistant which is what I am. I gave up being a nurse to be a medical assistant because of a car accident and had spent so much money I gave up after that. Anyway it was just weird out of the blue I learn the word nurse in Hebrew because I always feel sick I never became an RN and I love Yeshua and learning Hebrew. I've been wanting my name Hannah written in Hebrew tattooed on me. So for fun I translated Nurse Hannah and got to hear it say achot Chana in Hebrew and see it spelled out. Nobody cares lol but I decided to write this down because it just happened and it means something to me. I don't think the Lord wants me to pursue Nursing again. I mean I haven't asked Him. The logical thing is I'm barely trying to pay rent and in student loan debt and on my way to my nursing final my first semester after years of taking hard classes to get in...I broke bones and totaled my car after praying 30 seconds earlier I'd make it to school safely. An elderly lady ran a stop sign. It's already been this nasty scare in my heart and the pit of my stomach but I had no choice. I couldn't get in anywhere else in this new state. It would cost so much more and take so much longer with no guarantee I'd fail or another disaster would make it all for nothing. It's too risky. I thought God gave me a clear no. So why do I still feel this tug? I'm too afraid to go down that road again thinking it's God cheering me on and end up a fool. I wouldn't even know where to begin. I'm just going to shut up now. The case is closed. It would take a miracle and only a miracle. It's fun to dream or hope for 2 minutes tho.

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