This is a madman’s journey from hardcore addiction to non-addiction.
Having noticed that the intention to keep attention on something previously agreed upon is gone, I thank this part that lets me reawaken to the present. I relax, because I'm actually meditating and I smile! then I gently bring back attention.
I keep attention on the meditation object to such a degree that I have enough introspective awareness to maintain non-judgmental observation of present events, mindfulness.
When no more distractions tug at attention all top down attention/intention-management is abandoned such that only pure observation is left requiring no conscious effort to maintain.
This subdues the reactive and doing part of the mind and gives room for the perceiving knowing part of the mind.
It’s done to attain mindfulness without aversion/craving with a non-agitated mind.
Don’t take it personally, it will all pass, relax, smile and experience the now, be kind.
Every now has its I
I guess 🤣😜🤭🤷🏻♂️🤦♂️